KRaZy KiK AsS Ko0Ky KrEEpY KaL Of Ko0LNesS

Sunday, October 10, 2004:

Hey all, well I havent writtin in this for a long time. To catch up on my life im playing an online game called lineage2 its now taken over all aspects of my social life.. Over the summer I went to Iraq... I goto SMC and I drive a corolla =P. Well real reason im positing in this becuase I met this chick on my lineage 2 game called mehaa, she presured me to write in this, she is probably going to be the only one reading this. I would have to say that I do fancy her in a way as she does look like the hottest chik on the wolrd (avril lavigne) and shes pretty cool to talk to, by saying that I fancy her and knowing that she will read this I have commited a bullet to the head... but thats okay she lives somewhere far-away and I guess ill never ever meet her =P (which is good for her, because she thinks im some sort of serial rapist.. but she still continues to talk to me... how odd lol). Well there is this clan in my lineage2 game called EF I have currently left this clan =( which I love so much in hope that I will return to it soon (hopefully mehaa will come with me =/...) I feel like shit because I left the clan, I have many friends and people that I love in it =/. After totaly being bumed out about that, I started to think about my life how horrible it was... All my shitty experiences with the female kind and how they were utter failures I got into a sort of frantic hate... I started thinking of days where I was a masochist and contemplated doing it again as physical pain doesnt seem to affect me as much as my emotions. Well the music I was listening to at the time didnt help either (dashboard confesionals and coldplay...) at that point I had lost it so I called in for an absent day from work and hit the drinks I remember walking into a bar in southgate (they never ask for my ID because my beard makes me look 50) I remember starting to guzzle down alot next minute I know I wake up at Midway Hospital with 46 stitches in both arms and my torso. Im sure that I got beat up and beat up pretty bac =*(. I dont care though I feel a little better. Im at work right now.. Ill see if i can get out early get myself a few more beers =/. Moral of the stroy fuck u all.

thx

kal the dude

Kal // 10/10/2004 01:50:00 AM

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