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Saturday, May 03, 2003:

HEY GUYZ, fuken caps lock. Well im writin to u guyz from work. Im so tired i feel like shit. Well i went to marty saturday session shit for AP gov. was boren but educational. Well i feel like shit like im in my kal depressed mood again. I just won a bet, see me and isaac and julio made a bet 5 bux a person that whoever is the last to have a gf gets the cash, well im the last one julez is all cool wit his chik isaac is wit his chik but they dont admit it, leaving my ass out i get 10 bux but i aint gonna hold them up to it. Anyways should i be happy of winnin this bet?? i wouldve gladly paid to lose this bet i juss won the bet that signified me as a loser, adds more to my self esteem dont it??? well before i used to deal with my depression by smoken or kiken it wit friends, stopped the smoken turned to my hommies, now that they busy wit their girlz (dont blame em) and they fancy cars that leaven me here bitting my nailz slowly losing it. No freinds got me fuked should i go back to smoken weed? im such a fuken loser now i dont even have my normal hommies let alone a gf. Well another family member of mine died, that shit juss got me fuked i cant to see others suffer, I dont get this purpose of life anymore, i mean how much pain can any single person handle before he says no more? well i officially reliquenshed myself from god i officially declare myself athiest i dont belive in this "GOD" that u guyz speak of the all mighty fuken prik who tends to screw me over all the time, who lets hate reign, death control, and evil grow withen his most devoted followers which i used to be one of. well fuk it im gonna go roll up a J dont wanna keep feelin like this i might snap. bye all
Kal // 5/03/2003 11:28:00 PM

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Sunday, April 27, 2003:

Sup Friends. Well i juss got back home, waz kiken it wit julez joes and monkey. Man was cool joes waz driving and we almost got sideswiped by a range rover on the harbor 110, meh we lived. Well i returned my tux thats cool, and im home and my "parents" arent here which is bad ass cuz they are gonna trip when they see my hair (got it braided for prom if u dont know already). Well im listenin to my downer muzik some coldplay, dashboard, and other shit. Speaken of shit thats what i feel like, kinda having all these regrets, like im wishen i talked to my date more than i did, i wish i could actually dance cuz i couldnt. God it was horrible, it sux cuz she was so cool, but me being dumbass kal didnt know what to say, its just so hard to communicate. I grew up in a miltary camp our everyday activities were assembling and disassembling our rifles, or how many squirles can we kill with our combat knife, how many rounds can we unload as fast as possible accuratly. I grew up doing shit on how to survive, how to hate and most important how to kill. The program i was in was called SFTF soldiers for the future. Congress cancelled that program, then i was realised into this world, so lost i was an outcast not used to the concept of people, and most important girlz i grew up scared of them, not knowing what to say or what to do. I especially never went to parties never learned to dance. So ya thats why i feel so horrible i juss feel so incompitent god im a loser. Well thats just what i feel, im also having a hard time, a family memeber of mine died on the day of prom, dont want to talk about it tho. Well dont get this wrong prom was sweet was one of the best days of my life, and i thank all of you for it. I also thank all of the people who helped make it so sweet, u guyz know who u are. Well im out.
Kal // 4/27/2003 06:03:00 PM

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Hey guys, i write to u from the humble home of my hommie julio (wow julio was reading this and he pointed out the 4 H sounds in a row). Well before prom was hectic. Prom so sweet and after prom was kik ass. I got my hair braided and it looked cool was getting compliments was wearing my zoot suit tux thingy as everybody called it. Man i took a v8 mercadies ml 500 sports edition i went around mashing in it, with all its awesome power and might, driving in the streets like 100+, well i burned 3 camry's, a jag, 2 mercadies, bunch of other suv's 2 civics, and an h2, and a porshe and yes they did know we were racing. Well back to prom it was sweet everyone looked so cool i mean it was badass i felt complete but i had something on my mind the whole time (major family problem), Well my date Male (maria) she was cool, she was hella pretty too. Well as far as my date we danced and all, but being the kal u guyz usually know if ur a frequent reader of the BS i write would know im freaken scared of chix, like me and my date barely talked which kinda sux, my mind would juss go blank and i wouldnt know what to say. Well i had fun juss being with her even though we didnt talk that much. after prom me isaac (we finnaly reconciled :)...) tamara yelena her bf marta and her date, and olga and julio oh yeah sergay and his date and henry of course we all went and kiked it, first we went to a bowling place, was closed (where vanessa and her date were waiting for us) so then we went norms (lol kal party of 10) so yah we had a blast after that i dropped off olga then marta then henry, then went to julios house got their at like 6:00am man the car was sweet cd changer gps, but most impressive was the torque on that shit. Well ya let me juss thank my date, hilda, her date, ceasar, cindy (man cindy and ceaser were mean humping freak dancing) and andrea and her date they all sat at my table they were cool. I especially thank julio and isaac and all the russians. I also like to thank the unknown soldier which i wont leave out of this joes he helped my ass out before prom, he was so cool. Oh yeah and hilda i give her mad props because she actually got me a date shes kik ass. Well prom was so succesful i felt complete like i had freinds which was so awesome. Well im gonna go turn in my tux now or sometin have fun guyz.
Kal // 4/27/2003 12:53:00 PM

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