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Friday, April 04, 2003:

Hi all, im at a freinds house, i think my parents kiked me out, big ass fight. Well i feel like shit, fuk going clean, u know what fuk america, im gonna leave, to think i couldve been in iraq, if i went on that military thingy, i wouldve been making history but no, my fuken parents denied it, i feel like shit, omg these past days have been horrible, all i think about is my mistakes how much i fuked up, and how much i miss monica. I dont know life anymore im seriously thinking of leaving just disappering one day to never return maybe theyll find my body in the forest like 30 years later, who gives a fuk anyway i know i dont, y should u. Im sorry all i have been is a waste of everyonez time, all i do is bitch and im never happy. Im so sorry and to my freinds im sorry for being the bitch i am, im juss sorry im sorry i dont know what to say, im gonna look for a knife so i can must a masochism. well anywayz im off for the knife have fun. :(
Kal // 4/04/2003 09:18:00 PM

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Thursday, April 03, 2003:

Hi all, well its me again. Well prom sales were going on to today, yea im going stag :( meh who gives a fuk, not like i was going to dance or talk with any chik i take. Well i was readin my freinds monkies blog when, he was talken about he is all sad, and heart broken about a girl, and im like damn thats so sad he remindes me of me, i was listening to my downer musik at the time i was reading some coldplay to be exact the scientist by coldplay and he put in his blog he is listening to it to, and thats when it hit me, me and monkey are so fuken alike, were like some sort of a twisted enigma of sad and endless depression that will rage withen us for the rest of our life till true happiness comes which is unlikely for me for i lost anything that i love or have ever loved. Well im listening to the sceintist rite now, no it ended trouble by coldplay is up next, man i feel like shit, tell u the truth i feel like crying, life is shit, i miss monica oh godi love her,i cant take it no more, my bro is somewhere leading the war into bagdad he is in the 1st marine division i hope he doesnt die, i found out 3 days ago that his girl freind is 7 months pregnant, and im like fuk i wanna cry even more now, they didnt let him even get married they sent his ass out there since january, they are so fuken cold, he is in the frontline i dont want him to die, not juss cuz i love him, its for the baby imagine a baby with no father, that will so suk. Well warning sign by coldplay is playen now. ill gonna go wander the streets to find the answer for life ill see u guys later.
Kal // 4/03/2003 09:38:00 PM

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Wednesday, April 02, 2003:

hi all Im fuken tired, god im always fuken tired, i feel like shit, someone juss end this for me.
Kal // 4/02/2003 06:58:00 PM

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Sunday, March 30, 2003:

Hi, well its me, i totaly feel like shit, but i must resist drug temptations, i need to stop thinken about monica, god im a freak. Well something happened to me that u guyz wont ever believe, my house was raided by the fbi and swat. I was juss sitten here and i here the door being opened when i knew no one is expected home so i grabbed my knife and tazer, so i see some guy in a suit, i kik him in the nads when he was about to say something and i shocked him when the taser when i did that like 4 other guys 3 swat wit smg's aimed at me and one fbi dude wearing a suit, as he flashed he badge and screamed fbi, so i waz like these arent robbers so i dropped my weaponz, heheh think about i took down an fbi operative thats so cool, he had a gun out too! well they searched my house for bombs and shit, cuz u know im an arabic muzlim, thats so fuked up, and then they questioned me, thinkn im a fuken terrorist!!! can u believe that shit??? fuken land of the free my ass, basically the broke into my house searched my shit held me and questioned me and nothing i can do about it at all. Well so now that they thouroghly searched my house (for 3 fuken hourz) for bombs found it clear, and questioned me maken sure i waznt a terrorist or had any terrorist affiliates, those fuken dumb ass fagz, more i think about it more i realize how ive been violated and how i can do nothing about it. Well im 37 minutes late to work, and i really dont give a shit, if they want to fire me let them, im underpaid and do as much work as any 3 other workers put togetherz u know what, im gonna go there like 2 hourz late and im going to demand a raise either that or i fuken quit, well im gonna goto work now laterz
Kal // 3/30/2003 12:39:00 AM

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