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Wednesday, February 12, 2003:

Hi, well the depresent bi polar freak decided to write again. Hehe well lots of u peeps seem to be tripping on me peeps i know and dont know are giving me this look, its weird its a kind of im ashamed of u kal i thought u were btter than that kind of look, and also like a im better than u kind of look, i dunno why but its maken me trip. Well i got a flyer in the mail today from the dept. of defense of the united states of america, sayen that they need recrutes 17 or above to join in the armed forces who can speak arabic, not can i only speak arabic, but i can speak over 100 dialects of it, including the common folk iraqi dialect and the iraqi higher class fornmal type too. I already have training as a soldier they refered to me from my old mil camp days, saying they would like me to be dropped in north iraq, to help the kurdish resistance, behined enemy lines juss me and a couple hundred troops, no way out, while the main US force pushees in from the southwest from kuwait we would be up north closer to syria, so i want to go on this, id be honored, in fact i might get to see my bro hes a marine colonial serving in kuwait as i speak, I really want to go, but i dont know how to break it to my parents. Well im hoping that this will help the iraqi people to rid of their tyrant ruler who has oppresed them for years, and they finnaly deserve freedom, but then i think to my self arabic speaking couple hundred men dropped deep behined iraqi borders???? could this be the bay of pigs revisited???? I dunno, but im willing to die, at least its for a cause, i dont want to end up shot in some drive by shoot out, or missing my head like my freind mike, my life is shit i plan to go their and not only to serve but to live, i plan to help in the setting up of the new free democracy to help the people of iraq live a good life. Well i havent been myself lately ive been going through to much shit, and i have to think that the depression is not making me think rational at the same time, i need some major sleep, and i really need to think this through, me personally i would leave tommora, but my parents I have to obtain their signature and i dont think theyll give it to me, those fuken bastards they hate my ass, they know i wanna leave, they are keeping me here as torture they know i hate my life why wont they just let me go? well whatever im gonna go lift some weights or run or something, have a nice nite all.
Kal // 2/12/2003 10:01:00 PM

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